Reasons for Disbelieving

You are tangled
in my thoughts
this day after
long distance night.
As if my longing
and your restlessness
collided in mid-air
and rippled back
in criss-crossed waves
with a message
I can't quite decipher.

Not that I really believe.
I discount horoscopes
but read them anyway.
Just in case.

Like the time it said
‘someone at a distance
cares for you'
which I hoped
meant us
but honestly—
I knew better.

There are too many
reasons for disbelieving,
more ways to be lost
than found.

Still, I roll this
thread of possibility
between my fingers,
hoping to find
where it all ends
and tie it in a knot
that will hold.